Have any of you felt utterly lost in a completely familiar place? If you have, do let me know how you got out of it because I don’t know how.
There is a cloud looming over my head for the past 2 days and I don’t even know what the hell is bothering me. I am just not myself. I walk along familiar paths and see a sea of familiar faces as I do every single day and yet why do I feel like I don’t belong.
I am clueless as to what triggered me to be like this. I am not particularly happy nor do I have any reasons to feel sad. I just don’t have the mood to do anything at all. Work is piling up and deadlines are screaming in my face and still I have no passion to get started on anything.
I wake up and go about my day in a daze. I smile, I wave, I laugh at something funny, I eat, I drink, I go about doing everything exactly the way I do it and that’s it. No emotions, no feelings, nothing, zilch, nada. *sigh* I even turned down an outing to Ipoh with my friends today. Very unlike me coz I love hanging out, just to get out of the Cowboy Town uni.
I am not tired; I have been sleeping more in fact lately. It can not stress be when all I do is slack, chill and relax falsely hoping that is what I need to get rid of this Thing. So, how am I going to solve something that I don’t even know what it is about? Maybe it is a phase, like a passing cloud on a sunny day. Maybe this is a sign of depression? Maybe a short-circuit took place in my brain while I took my countless naps hoping to sleep this off. *shrugs*
Lost at a familiar place.
something inexperienced before,
something I don’t know how to solve,
something that is beginning to bug me,
something not permanent I hope,
something I pray is not serious.
some thing if something is something at all.
I’m not making any sense. So I shall stop here. *cloud looms over head*
Will I get this though? *wonders*
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me