Labour pains

… or at the least the equivalent of it is what I’m suffering from – a blardy toothache. And its not just any freaking toothache, its one that involves a wisdom tooth and…. wait for it….. surgery!!!

Aaahh yes, the dreaded word – surgery. What I thought was a mere ulcer was cleverly hidden under the soft tissues at the very end of my mouth turned out to be a massive inflammation of the gums. I first noticed the slight pain on Sunday but quickly dismissed it. By Tuesday night, it had gotten considerably worse. Wednesday had me down with a blinding headache and a fever. I got myself into bed at a record breaking 9pm, tossed and turned and finally shot out of bed close to 1am. And then it dawned upon me, this is a wisdom tooth problem!!

I texted Ryan asking him to survey for dentists around my office or my house area. To which he came down, and quickly got me to the nearest hospital. I was prescribed with some powerful painkillers – panadiene and voltaren. My pain subsided enough for me to get 5 hours of shut eye. The next few days was spent with me surviving on painkillers to get through work.

I’m now back home. I had my upper left wisdom tooth removed yesterday. This helped with the pain a little. And on Tuesday, I’m off for my oral surgery, the second one in a span of 6 months.

It is amazing what I perceived as a mere ulcer/toothache can affect my daily life. In fact, pain to be more precise is something nobody should have to live with. My high threshold of pain also failed me this time around. Pain is so bad that sometimes it is the only thing I can think about. It consumes a lot out of a person, emotionally, mentally and physically draining. I will never ever underestimate the power of pain simply because I’ve never endured one of such forceful nature till now. So when my dentist said a toothache (especially when it has hit the nerves) is the equivalent of labour pains, I nodded in agreement.

25 Very Kul~Wind~Duh Facts

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.(To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. I talk a lot.
2. But when I’m alone when I meet new people, I tend to be quiet.
3. I dream of traveling the world – backpack style.
4. I’m a morning person and pretty much shut down at midnight.
5. Wanna make me high? Coffee will do the trick :P
6. I hope to have a pet someday; a cute little puppy.
7. I want to try as many things as possible. Just last weekend, I crossed off ice-skating of my list. Yippee!
8. Oh, I’m a list-making person. I make lists for almost everything.
9. I want to live in a tastefully decorated, cosy home.
10. Can you believe that I have never attended a concert before? Jason Mraz here I come!
11. Clubbing these days are overrated (and overpriced). House parties are way more fun and personal.
12. I grew up with an ambition of being an accountant since I was 10 years old.
13. Life without music will be absolutely boring.
14. I can’t act. I laugh/giggle/ lose my lines too easily.
15. If I could choose one talent, I would like to be gifted in writing. I find expressions in words very inspiring and moving.
16. The best way to dance is as if no one is looking.
17. One of the best things I enjoy doing is planning holidays and activities.
18. Am not a movie buff. Therefore I tend to be picky about the movies I watch.
19. My expectations of movies are ridiculously high.
20. I don’t eat breakfast unless I stay in a hotel coz hotel breakfast (in most cases anyway) are yummy.
21. I have a craving for waffles that has been unsatisfied for a long time.
22. When the weighing scale indicates an increase in weight, I leap for joy. Today was one such event :).
23. Who I am today is attributed to my family and very close friends.
24. I know one person who sends shivers down my spine and a skip in heartbeat (in a good way) with a mere thought.
25. I thought only people with a lot of time did this. But now I’m at my last item, it was pretty fun in a very perasan way having to talk about myself 24 times!

PS: yes, this is a copy of the chain-note that has been going on in Facebook. Ignoring it is quite hard seeing that I have been tagged 3 times and this is to my knowledge. I'm not sure if there are others who have also tagged me. Technologically challenged la katakan.

PPS: And yes, this doesnt technically count as a blog post. Why haven't i updated in a long time? Well, that's a long story deserving of a post of its own. Till then, miss me a lil bit wont you...

My New Toy

After 5 long loyal years, I put my handphone to rest. It served me very well but in the past few months have been showing signs of collapse from wear and tear and of course, its very matured age. I still remember the days where I grit my teeth with the phone gets cranky. One such incident where it stop vibrating anymore.

So, let me present to you my new toy: The Nokia N79! Seriously, after my old phone, the current one is a whole world of difference! Its got all this cool funky features that i know everyone else's phone got except mine. And i have yet to pick up the instruction manual prefering to explore its functions on my own. Of course i did come across not knowing how to undo a setting simply because i cant remember where the hell was the application/fuction/feature placed in the menu. Lol.

But i totally *heart* my phone. It was down to the N82, N85 and N79. I do wish the keypads were as soft as the N85 but the N85 is a slide phone and i know these generally dont last long, at least not at the rate i use my phone. The N82 while it has excellant features (actually, they're all pretty much the same), the keypads were just freaking ugly and hard to press. The N79 won hands down as it was candybar and the keypads albeit being a lil hard, were still much better and nicer too. You can read reviews of the N79 *here*.

And who i have to thank for the amazing birthday present - Dad!

The Year: 2009

I welcome 2009 with an open heart.

2008 was a brilliant year for me. I would have selected it as “The Year” in a heartbeat because of all the amazing things that I have and that have taken place. I have so much to be thankful for, my wonderful family, remarkable true friends, graduating (with grades better that I expected), a job that makes me feel like a fully grown up person, super duper fun times with everyone and the glue to everything, love. Part of me is overwhelmed by all the blessings that I have been showered with and no amount of thank you to God is enough to represent how I feel. I feel so happy.

Initially, I was a lil afraid at the arrival of 2009. I didn’t want 2008 to end because it was one of the best years i had and part of me doesn’t want to let that go. A new year brings upon uncertainties, and I’m just happy to carry on with the 2008 way of life. What if 2009 changes all the great things? Alas, time waits for no man, plus I’m not silly enough to think it will wait for me.

But really, isn’t a new year the best way to start with a clean slate? A fresh start, a new beginning, new horizons to venture to, going for adventures of a life time, bitter sweet experiences which will add colour to my Life Sheet. And the best part of all, all these will be shared with my loved ones. So 2009 don’t scare me anymore. In fact, I look forward to what this year will bring upon.

I have a feeling 2009 is going to be an even better year than the years before. I believe we will all grow and develop, to care and share, to love wholeheartedly, to become stronger with every challenge thrown in our paths, to become wiser with each new experience, an unwavering believe in everything we pursue, a deeper sense of attachment to Him.

Cheers to 2009 to an incredible year ahead!

Nothing is enough

The brown eyes circled in grey
The very enchanting eyelashes
The slender long fingers
Sturdy, firm arms
The way the two palms fit like
lock and key.

The scarf hiding the beautiful hair
The innocent shy smile
The sincere, genuine words which
melts the heart
like barbequed marshmallows
sends the shivers down the spine
and butterflies in the stomach.

Every imperfection adds character
The scars so personal, they hurt,
The embrace so tight
it grips the heart, mind and soul
The missing and longing of
the warmth, touch, nearness and presence
One makes all the difference
and nothing is ever enough.

The Story of Conversation

I’m trying to put down these few things into words with the softest hint of instrumental tunes at the background to crease out my thoughts. But with only 2 hours of sleep, my already limited vocabulary is failing me and I can’t really paint a picture of what I want to say. So instead of trying to explain, perhaps a story will do better justice to the impression I’m trying to convey.

“You have a conversation where the rest of the world shuts of, it is only you and the person seated next to you that matters. The surroundings start out loud and noisy, busy with the family of 40 members seated next to the two of you. Neither realized when did the jim bang trickled out. Eventually the lights start switching off before you realize how much time has passed. You feel like going for a long walk, something not done in a very long time. The other suggested a car ride and off both of you went touring the streets of the metropolitan city with no destination in mind. Just bright lights, rights and lefts, roundabouts, missed turns and sometime even going in circles. But it was fun.

A small tour of yesteryear landmarks and sandwiches at the everything-under-the-sky-stall, which brought back thoughts of carefree college days, ended the night. But in essence, the two know it wasn’t the food, crowd or ride which was significant. Tête-à-tête was the glue to the beautiful night, to the seemingly endless exchange of words, ideas, opinions, swapping of stories, history, childhood memories. You could have sat down, talked and did nothing else but went home feeling like you had best time ever.”


That was the emotion I wanted to capture. Oh, and the lack of sleep? Totally worth it.

It feels like high school

There were some things in high school which fades and then there are some which sticks till my grown up years.

“The Girl stalls at the corridor hoping to catch a glance at The Boy. Then there were the calls to the house phone where into the 20th minute, someone had to use the phone. The internet brought upon e-cards and long msn chats, again till someone had to use the computer. It is also the time where your heart skips a beat, you can’t help smiling, everything seems so magical. The excitement when The Boy comes over to say hi, chit chat for a bit in full view of your friends who are giggling behind your back.”

Ah yes, the high school days.

All those flashback both from experience and of friends kept my mind occupied during my 35 minute LRT ride to work this morning. In about a month, I will be 24 years old. Yet some things don’t go away even if you have aged 10 years from being a teenager.

The heart still skips a beat. The giggling has died but the excitement lives. Emails / Facebook have taken precedence over online chats. No one will bug me 20 minutes into the conversation because I have a handphone. Gone are the days about favourite bands (BSB & N’Sync comes to mind), the famous celebrities and hunks, the latest movies, who’s-with-who. This has evolved into talk about ourselves, interests, the looming economic downturn, political circus of our country, unit trusts, aspirations. “Hanging out” no longer revolves around a mall.

Yeah, I have grown but a thing like a crush is here to stay.