Happy?

I’m not really sure what has struck me but I’m not exactly me, at least not for the last few days. I’m in this really weird mood or phase. I get upset, frustrated and even lose my temper more easily. I whine, I complain and then i make a 360 turn reverting to my old self like nothing took place previously. I can’t figure out what has triggered this in me.

My days have been pretty routine for a long time. Nothing new ever takes place here. I’ve not had any good nor upsetting news so why should I feel this way?

It’s a nagging feeling inside, like an itch you scratch but to no relief. I’m not angry but I do feel the temperature rising pretty damn fast which scares me because I don’t have a temper to begin with. And I have no intention of developing one. But I don’t like the little devil inside me.

And then it hit me. I may be up and about (very very little actually, but that’s another story altogether) and sitting at home, kononnya chillexing (chilling + relaxing), I hang out with my friends but there is one important ingredient missing. And I feel that that could be causing the tiny turbulations of rebellions eating me inside, thinning down my walls, chewing into my heart. I’m not happy.